in thought! I could get lost inside my own head. It just never stops, from trying to remember if I put the laundry in the dryer, to trying to figure out dinner for the next week to wondering what my day would look like 150 years ago. Like I said, it never stops! This is why I decided to start writing because I have so much material that I could put on paper to entertain someone for hours! The only problem is getting it from my head to the paper or computer! Inspiration hits at the strangest times! I have so many random notes on my devices (which ever one is closest to take voice notes) that I need to finish. The problem now is trying to make the time with a busy toddler running around all day. His nap time isn’t the same every day anymore so I can’t really plan for that time slot to write. I need to prioritize time for myself without feeling guilty about it or that time for myself is selfish. Why do I feel like that? Have you ever felt this way? Often, when I do set aside time for me, other things come up and it’s easier for me to just do whatever it is instead of delegating it to another family member like the husband or older kids. The other issue is that I have so many things on my me time list that writing becomes the last thing I can get to. ADHD doesn’t help either! I swear if I had a video of me trying to get anything done around the house it would be hilarious. This morning, for example, I started to make coffee and the coffee pot needed cleaned so I washed the dishes in the sink and cleaned the counters and saw blueberries that needed washed, and I remembered I had more produce in the fridge needed cleaned and there were ripe berries on the bushes outside so Jax (my toddler) and I went outside to pick them. When I got the stuff out of the fridge and saw the mess in there, so I started cleaning it out and thought about my coffee and realized I never finished making it! I just stood there in amazement at my torn apart kitchen with 10 projects started and none of them close to being finished. And I was hungry, it was time to make breakfast for the kids, oh and the cast iron wasn’t cleaned last night! I thought I did that but apparently did not. Now I’m standing in my kitchen which is more of a mess than it was before, and I have no idea what to complete first. So, I decided to take a break and write this quick post and admire my chaos. Anyone else have days like this? I keep telling myself that one day I will get organized again, one day…
Soul Searching with Yve 
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